Did it ever happend to you to have a cold and google for a solution, some magic tea or something like that? Don't know if ever happend to you, but it happend to me.
When I was a little girl, my grandma was making this joke like .. if you have a cold, don't worry... without treatment it goes in 7 day, with pills it goes in a weak. Don't know if you get it, but the idea behind this is that you should stop freaking out if you have a minor health problem and don't make a big deal out of it.
When I was a little girl, my grandma was making this joke like .. if you have a cold, don't worry... without treatment it goes in 7 day, with pills it goes in a weak. Don't know if you get it, but the idea behind this is that you should stop freaking out if you have a minor health problem and don't make a big deal out of it.
My actual problem started like two years ago, going to the dentist. I was never afraid of the dentist or injections or that buzz that seems to penetrate your brain at times. Or at least I thought so, or I just wanted to be brave. The thing is that I had my first anxiety attack after a local anesthesia. On the following treatments I had the substances changed, tests done and so on, but my problem with the anxiety just grown, as it was later proven.
I have started to think my doctors are all crazy and they want to poison me. I have started to lean about medicines, reactions, contraindications and so on, and ask my dentist and my doctor about everything, thinking they have missed something. It took me a long time to understand and accept that I have anxiety attacks and to lean about it. I never had any medication for it and I tried to understand what's going on with me and control it myself. I have started to read evan more about it and see how people deal with it, as the holy Google was giving me all the answers.
I have started to think my doctors are all crazy and they want to poison me. I have started to lean about medicines, reactions, contraindications and so on, and ask my dentist and my doctor about everything, thinking they have missed something. It took me a long time to understand and accept that I have anxiety attacks and to lean about it. I never had any medication for it and I tried to understand what's going on with me and control it myself. I have started to read evan more about it and see how people deal with it, as the holy Google was giving me all the answers.
Couple of months ago it happend to me the unexpected. As I was coming back from work in car, I started to have difficulties breathing. Naturally, as from two years ago I am scared of many things, I thought is another attack. This one didn't go as usual. Actually it didn't go at all. Was just getting stronger and stronger. I couldn't breath and I was literally thinking I am going to die. And I have started once again to "google". And the amount of answers I have found... it just transformed me into a hypochondriac.
I have finally decided to go to the doctor, and guess what. I just had a troth infection. Since then I have decided to stop being a smart ass and accept the fact that I am just a bit scared and mostly human. No more freaking out, no more google research about illness or anxiety. I have learned to accept the fact that I can not know everything and I can't do everything. But I still try to face my fears.
And I am so much more relaxed and happy.
And I am so much more relaxed and happy.
Still thinking about jumping :)